Paranoia

[foxgrrl]

The morning after I made this post: http://foxgrrl.livejournal.com/50642.html I walked into work — that afternoon actually — and was making random chit-chat with a coworker — flint_otter actually — and he said that he was reading this article on C|Net about how there was some new super-exploit already for the recent Windows vulnerability, and I'm like: Yeah, the MS06-070 one, I just wrote an exploit for it last night. And he's like, No it's something really new as of Tuesday. And I'm like, Yeah, that was MS06-070, unless one of the other ones was horribly exploitable. And he's like, Well, someone just wrote an exploit for it, and it's on the front page of C|Net. And I'm like, Um, I just wrote an exploit for it… And made a mention of it in my blog… Having been around C|Net reporters before, I know that they print a lot of hearsay and rumors from questionable sources. [And as I write this, Nyah keeps trying to tickle me → Just you wait until I write about this in my LJ! I exclaim. It's making it a bit hard to concentrate…]

So, I looked the article up…

http://news.com.com/Experts+raise+Windows+security+alarm/2100-1002_3-6136310.html

Paranoia mounting… Right now, I really don't need nameless cyclopean institutions investigating me… again. Especially, if there's suddenly a huge MS06-070 exploiting-worm outbreak. You know, it looks kinda suspicious, since I told a bunch of people that I write 0-day exploits and internet worms for a living; I might be viewed as a suspect. But I quickly figured out that they were referring to this: http://www.milw0rm.com/exploits/2789 (I still haven't published my MSF3 module anywhere.)

There was a period of time when I wasn't oppressively paranoid all the time, when I wasn't incredibly uptight and stressed out… when I wasn't pretending to be normal. It was right after I transitioned (the first time). In a way, I was really going from one box to another by going stealth - But there was a time in between, when I was outside of the rigid boxes.

Oh yeah, for those of you who didn't know, I'm a MtFtMtWtF transsexual.

What with her being a genderqueer hacker and everything…
or her being a genderqueer lesbian hacker…
or her being a genderqueer lesbian furry hacker…
or her being a genderqueer lesbian pagan furry hacker…
or her being a genderqueer lesbian otherkin pagan furry hacker…
or her being a left-handed genderqueer lesbian otherkin pagan furry hacker…

…life can be pretty difficult on that young lady.

Comments

[proudlyfallen.livejournal.com]

Hehe, yes, I can imagine what happens after that, quite well, because I am one of those people! lol.

I live in New England, and yet, when I see "capital city of New York" I still think NYC. >.< Whoops. Actually, I was in Albany a month or so ago... when it got compared to a skyline straight out of Star Wars. Between that, and the fact that people will give you directions to go through a parking garage, Albany just confuses me.

I've been in parts of NYC where people WERE friendly and knew their neighboors. Hell, I knew some of the people around there, and I just went down for weekends and tended to stay in the apartment. Where in NYC did you live?

[oygevalte.livejournal.com]

True, there are tight-knit neighborhoods still in NYC, but they are disappearing fast. There's a lot of discussion about that in NYT articles over the past 10 years or so.

Yes, Albany's state office buildings downtown are very Star Wars-ish. :) I had sex once on the groomed lawn area next to the freeway stub/parking garage, where the parking garage fan fens are. ;) I love the thrill of almost getting caught. XD

And at least you KNOW you're like that, which means you're able to work on improving it, and apologizing when it screws things up to whatever degree; most of mine never were aware, never apologized, and ultimately either ran away out of fear of facing that in themselves, or convinced themselves it weren't their fault...