"So this is it. We're going to die."

[foxgrrl]

At one point in the last several days, I found myself in a situation where I said to myself: Oh shit! So this is it, this is how I die&hellip […] (Oh, I'm still alive.) In hindsight I wasn't really in any danger. Whenever I have one of these experiences, it really reminds me of just how much I really love being alive despite all the pain. That, and I really feel like I'm not done yet. There's something I'm supposed to be doing on this Earth — I don't know what it is, so I could be doing it right now for all I know.

After the previous time this happened to me (a few months ago), I wrote the following farewell to a friend:

This is Julia. I want you to know that life is a gift, and you should cherish every beautiful moment of it. Be Well.

Another thing that I have observed about myself in these moments, is the entire rest of my brain/mind very rapidly formulating survival plans, to immediately get out of the situation. It's almost like an automatic reflex.

If you've ever found yourself in one of these situations where you've thought to yourself that you were going to die. What were the last thoughts which ran through your head?

Comments

[tlttlotd.livejournal.com]

I have, and unfortunately the only thing that went through my mind at the time was "Aw, shit."

It was really the only thing that I had time to think in the moment, and seemed to be the most reasonable thing that anyone could say under the circumstances.

[ephermata.livejournal.com]

was this recent?

anyway, hope you're doing well now!

[tracerj.livejournal.com]

Yeah. My closest brush was accompanied by the clear thought, "I knew it'd happen in a car."

[tlttlotd.livejournal.com]

For me, it was a rather nasty storm breaking off part of the tree in my backyard and hurling it through the back porch of the house I was living in. Unfortunately, I was sitting right in front of the door (which held - no one was hurt) at the same time, so I had an excellent view of the branch heading right for me.