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foxgrrlSo lately I've been really depressed, not at this moment as I type, but really, really,
When I read LJ, I see everyone else posting about the same experiences that I am having, at the same times at which I am having them. When I feel good, everyone else feels good; When I feel bad, everyone else feels bad. This gives the illusion of there being some kind of cause and effect relationship between myself, and everyone I know. That I am somehow responsible for the mood of the whole world.
Then I start to wonder, if I really am the only being in creation, and everyone else is just a reflection of my mind - reflected in a multi-faceted inverted disco mirror ball. Then I start to wonder if I really exist at all, and that my being is the result of the collective thoughts and moods of everyone on Earth.
Are you a figment of my imagination, or am I a figment of yours?
Update: Let's make a deal; I'll try to stay happy and energetic, if everyone else tries to stay happy too&hellip Please… for the love of god, be happy!
I can't go on living like thiskinda pain, immobilizing me. It seems to be recurring about every sixty hours, but I can deal with it. What I really, really, hate about it, is that I can't help the people around me deal with their depression — which always seems to happen at the same time as mine.
When I read LJ, I see everyone else posting about the same experiences that I am having, at the same times at which I am having them. When I feel good, everyone else feels good; When I feel bad, everyone else feels bad. This gives the illusion of there being some kind of cause and effect relationship between myself, and everyone I know. That I am somehow responsible for the mood of the whole world.
Then I start to wonder, if I really am the only being in creation, and everyone else is just a reflection of my mind - reflected in a multi-faceted inverted disco mirror ball. Then I start to wonder if I really exist at all, and that my being is the result of the collective thoughts and moods of everyone on Earth.
Are you a figment of my imagination, or am I a figment of yours?
Update: Let's make a deal; I'll try to stay happy and energetic, if everyone else tries to stay happy too&hellip Please… for the love of god, be happy!
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Date: 2006-12-19 04:47 pm (UTC)I think that we, all, are either loving, or seeking love. It happens all the time. We notice more the larger aspects of how our minds affect and are affected.
Seriously, perhaps this has to do with solar weather and the effects of it's rays. Like astrology but solar.
I'm looking forward to seeing you. Also, huge boosts and congratulations on your forthcoming long distance excursion. You excel. Be well, safe, and stay strong.
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