foxgrrl | Put the oxygen mask over your own face first

So lately I've been really depressed, not at this moment as I type, but really, really, I can't go on living like this kinda pain, immobilizing me. It seems to be recurring about every sixty hours, but I can deal with it. What I really, really, hate about it, is that I can't help the people around me deal with their depression — which always seems to happen at the same time as mine.

When I read LJ, I see everyone else posting about the same experiences that I am having, at the same times at which I am having them. When I feel good, everyone else feels good; When I feel bad, everyone else feels bad. This gives the illusion of there being some kind of cause and effect relationship between myself, and everyone I know. That I am somehow responsible for the mood of the whole world.

Then I start to wonder, if I really am the only being in creation, and everyone else is just a reflection of my mind - reflected in a multi-faceted inverted disco mirror ball. Then I start to wonder if I really exist at all, and that my being is the result of the collective thoughts and moods of everyone on Earth.

Are you a figment of my imagination, or am I a figment of yours?

Update: Let's make a deal; I'll try to stay happy and energetic, if everyone else tries to stay happy too&hellip Please… for the love of god, be happy!